The Rush Of Getting Back To Even
During the throes of active addiction, I told myself I was always playing to win. That was the story I clung to. But looking back honestly, I can see something much darker underneath it. I wasn’t just chasing wins. I was chasing the chaos that came from being down. Down bad. Getting myself into a massive hole created an overwhelming sense of urgency, and that urgency delivered a rush that a clean win never could.